What are you doing with my life?!

This was a quote from Reagan this past week that I haven’t been able to stop thinking about. We were all relaxing together one morning, Jeremy picked Reagan up to tickle her and through her laughter yells out, “What are you doing with my life?!?” Like many of her little sayings, it caught us completely off guard and we were laughing at how cute and funny it was.

But that phrase has popped up in my head continuously all week. I know there’s been many times in my life that I’ve asked myself, “Tabitha, what are you doing with your life?”, and I think most people can say the same thing. Reagan wasn’t asking herself though, (I mean, she is only 3). Although in play, she asked her dad, because she knows, right now, it’s mom and dad that are in charge of her life. As we get older, we become in charge of our own life. It’s no longer mom and dad.

One thing I tend to forget though, is I’m not in charge of my own life. I try to be, more often than I care to admit, but ultimately, God has charge over me. I shouldn’t be asking myself what I’m doing, I need to be going to God and asking Him what HE’S doing. As much as we, as parents, are doing everything we can for our children, God goes so far beyond what we can imagine. So why do I not ask Him more often what He’s doing with my life?

I’ve been listening/reading to a book called “Redeeming Productivity” by Reagan Rose. A friend of mine recommended the book, and I’m glad she did. He mentions how productivity should look different for Christians because our motives should be different. Most productivity books all come back to a “me” mindset. ‘How can this help me, how can I be more productive and make more money for things I want’? For Christians, it should be all about Him. We are productive to glorify God. Every part of my life, should be to glorify Him. If I’m asking myself “what are you doing with your life”, I’m losing that focus. I need to be asking God, just like little Reagan asked her dad. I need to stop getting in the way and trying to figure out what I want, and instead seek God, and find what He wants.

Currently God has blessed us beyond measure with 3 beautiful kids to raise, 2 full time jobs and this small business we started just a year and a half ago. It’s our prayer to keep asking God, in all the crazy “what are you doing with my/our life?”. Do we still have our eyes set on Him? Are we still honoring God in all we do? Are we following our own desires, or Gods? Are our motives for personal gain, or Kingdom gain? I still don’t know all He has planned for us, but I’m excited to see just what He is doing with my life, and the lives of my little family.